I’m back in the same place I was in September and October, doing a somewhat similar although clearly different assignment for the same department at the same organization I temped at before. My first day back was bizarre, as I ran into everyone I had interacted with on a daily basis for a month and a half and they all had nice things to say to and about me. Far better than the opposite, but still strange.
After a half-week of training, I was back upstairs in or near my old office, working on menial tasks with the permanent employees, leaving a lot of time to talk and get to know one another–something I didn’t have the chance to do a few months ago. In some cases, this means venturing into the coworker zone of conversation, which can go from commonalites (“Hey, you like this thing I like!”) to the banal (“Yeah, I’m getting a haircut tomorrow.”) to the awkward disagreements (which I’m about to talk about).
Being a temp means being able to take a step back, away from any workplace drama, personal fallout, policy decisions or systemic issues. The phrase “I’m just a temp,” no matter how jokingly said, reverberate with a kind of freedom. One is still responsible for one’s actions, of course, and should take pride in any work done, but that lack of investment means often escaping office politics unscathed.
That sort of freedom can be nice, except when faced with working closely with someone at length–someone who, very occasionally, openly expresses an opinion I fundamentally disgaree with regarding an issue I care about. Then what? That veil of disconnection shackles my ability to express my opinion, my ability to get involved. Then it’s about sacrificing integrity, biting my tongue to preserve that nonchalance I enjoy.
And I leave work wondering if it’s a fair trade. «»


